I am 28 weeks pregnant today and I feel like I have been pregnant forever! This week we had a scare that sent us running to the hospital, luckily all was well and this bun is still cooking as he or she should be.
While I was laying in that bed stressed right out and fearing the worst, I looked over and there you were. Your eyes were full of concern and you instinctively knew exactly what I needed from you. I felt so much love and gratitude in that moment and feel as though I need to share it with the world.
I feel so incredibly grateful and blessed to have you with me on this journey. You have always seen me and all my broken parts as perfect and so worthy of love and I could never fully express to you the positive changes that kind love has brought forth in me.
I grew up in a house of a different generation, where there was not that kind of support and expression of love. My father loved my mother certainly but she largely had to go it alone when it came to pregnancy and raising kids. She did an amazing job and my father made sure we never went without but I always dreamed of having a different dynamic in my marriage and you have made that dream come true.
I worry sometimes that I don’t always express my love for you as well, that I don’t always make you feel special and if so I am sorry. You take such amazing care of me and I never ever want to take that for granted.
You are always there when I need you. To take out the garbage or change the laundry when I forget. You always pay attention to my interests and the things that I need and you give me the best surprises. You always make me laugh and know when I just need a good cry, your shoulder is always there for my tears and occasionally your shirt when the snot is too much. You never judge me when I have an emotional breakdown and you never invalidate my feelings. You always try to see my side of things when we disagree on something and you are the very best role model to our son.
I dearly wish that all women and mommas could experience the safety and wholeness that I experience with you, I am truly fortunate.
This pregnancy is all I ever hoped for. I am completely surrounded by friends and family that are equally joyful about our new addition. Our son as you may know from previous posts is my step son, and he is so excited to have a brother or sister. His amazing mother gives me so much love and support and I am very lucky to be able to say that I have her in my corner, having her as a co-parent and friend helps gives me so much confidence in my ability to do this.
Our friend circle is incredibly strong and I know that I will never ever be without the support that I need.
This momma is counting the days and counting her blessings for each and everyone of her people. None more than her loving partner. I love you to the everything. ❤